Who Me?

I have been working on "being me" for 41 years. Recently you told me that "in me" is a singer/songwriter.  Who me?  You know how shocked I am to hear this as my life so far has been full of thoughts about my musical abilities.  How many times have I said "I don't have a musical bone in my body"?  I am sure you have counted them and been sad every time.  I ask you to show me my youth in terms of music and singing.  The emotion that comes forth is new to me as I have done well at pressing it down.  I remember playing records over and over and singing out loud and with so much heart.  What has happened to me along the way?  Sorrow? Fear? Disappointment? Doubt?  It is so sad that your artwork would never be encouraged to be what it was intended.  I can't imagine how many pieces of artwork lay waiting in other spirits.

Today I am still doubting - was it a dream I heard about singer/songwriter?  I don't even really know what my singing voice sounds like.  I will step out though, just a small step.  I will see about voice lessons - I need another spirit besides you to encourage me - one that can physically kick my butt.  And I will view the piano lessons with Goldie and Jude differently (it is interesting how I have wanted them so badly to learn about music).

I ask for your love to strengthen me and make me brave in this endeavour.  Otherwise I will probably turn to my comfortable fearing place.  Thank-you for loving me into discovering more about "being me".

I love you too (as much as I possibly can)

T

Ballad #1